Change Your Mind ...

The average Generation Y'er changes their career 29 times throughout the course of their life. Maybe I am about to embark on that journey. I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do in life and what I want to accomplish. When I was a little girl and all throughout elementary and high school I've wanted to be a teacher. Then I went to University and at some point in my first year, I decided that I didn't want to do that anymore. I didn't really have any reasoning behind it - I said I didn't like kids but in reality, I love them. I also said that I didn't want to deal with the kids that have no desire to learn but I truly think that is where I would derive a lot of my passion. In reality, I think it's because I was afraid. I knew the competitiveness of getting into Teacher's College and I knew that I didn't have the greatest grades throughout high school and really did not think that I could do it.

Lately, I've been thinking about it. I've been thinking about how much I yearned to be a teacher and make a difference in children's lives. I always wanted to be that teacher that Mr. Tabone was to me. So influential and one of the reasons that I believed I could get into University.

I made a decision today after talking to my friend, Nicole. We sat down and talked about how difficult this year has been for me and how I need to make a radical change and do something that I want. I mentioned to her that I always wanted to be a teacher while I was growing up. Once I got past the whole wanting to be a vet so I could play with animals, it was always teaching that I wanted. She told me that she thinks I would be an amazing teacher, that I would be great for kids who struggle and kids who don't want to be there. That I won't put up with shit but I will make the learning fun. I started crying because I realized how badly I really want it.

I feel like I'm at this crossroads now. I really love the HR field. So do I apply for Teacher's College in Decemeber? Meaning it would put off a full time job for two more years? Meaning I would be 27 before I found full time employment? That's not even including the time I would put in as an Occasional Teacher. Do I want to put up with another year of shcool? Or do I suck it up and stick with the HR field? Stick with something that I will be content in. I mean, I may not even find full time employment in HR for another two years. It's already been over a year for me and I haven't found the right fit.

I told my mom today that if I don't have a FT HR position by December that I am going to apply. So we'll see what happens.